I’m 26 and my hair is going grey. There I said it. No I’m not talking about finding one or two grey hairs, I’d experienced that by the time I was 18, this is noticeable.
I’ve always dyed my hair. Since the age of about 13 I’ve always been trying to liven up my ‘boring’ dark brown hair with reds and purples, getting a bit more daring through university and going bright red and ginger. For years now I had got accustomed to seeing the odd grey hair, mostly around my temples, or as my roots grew out I’d notice them along my parting. It didn’t really bother me and I never gave it a huge amount of thought. I dyed my hair so often it was only occasionally I’d really notice.
After bleaching the ends of my hair a few times (badly at home I’m afraid to admit) I decided enough was enough and I’d messed up my hair too much. Chop if off and stop dying it was the only answer! What seemed quite sudden, what I’d thought was just the odd strand of grey had somehow multiplied without me realising. Over the past two years I have noticed it more and more and become increasingly self-conscious of others noticing it too. This year I turned 26 and I was officially much closer to 30 than 20 and I hate to admit it but I’m becoming more and more aware every day of looking ‘old’. Can you remember when you were 18 and if someone thought you were 21 you were pleased!? Now if someone suggests I might look 27 I feel quite deflated! Pathetic and silly I know. 26 is not bloody old. If only my mind could be rational all the time though!
I’ve googled multiple times about going grey in your twenties. I don’t really know why. Whatever the reason it hardly matters now, it won’t reverse itself if I somehow manage to not be stressed for the rest of my life. If you’re interested it’s quite often genetic, with the potential for stress and some vitamin deficiencies to also play a part.
I’m on a bit of a journey to try and love myself again and I suppose this is just another part of it. Another thing about myself to learn to love. Until that happens I guess I’ll keep buying that hair dye until maybe one day I can accept the greys and possibly even embrace them. We’ll see.
Talk soon x